forms (of being)

Drawing to me is a bit like thinking aloud. It’s a space, where I can experiment and explore connections: of thoughts, of emotions, or sensations of thoughts and states I find myself in. I started this series during the darkest time of my life, when living with a chronic disease was being in hell. Ironically, this is when I introduced color. First in smaller formats that I am turning into a graphic novel, and then in this series called forms (of being), on  a larger scale. The shapes are inspired by patterns found in nature, mostly monochrome as it was winter, up in the mountains, when I kicked off. The colour came intuitively. It felt like a bold move, as colour was not yet part of my drawing world. Maybe in defiance of the pain and the limitations that I am in, but also because of them: pain is, like breathing, getting older, decay and cycles, part of life.

Drawing became an act of resistance. An evidence of being alive.

On the way, I encounter the ambivalence of pain: it’s not all negative and ugly; it opens a vast, messy space and on it’s other, far end corner desire is slumbering.

I continue to work on these forms in spasmic rhythms, moving on in the pace my condition allows.

 

Material: pierre noire and oil on paper or tracing paper
Photos: Karlheinz Fessl
2019-now

forms (of being) 1
forms (of being) 1
Dimension: 120 x 120 cm
forms (of being) 2
forms (of being) 2
Dimension: 120 x 120 cm
forms (of being) 3
forms (of being) 3
Dimension: 150 x 104 cm
forms (of being) 4
forms (of being) 4
Dimension: 150 x 143 cm
forms (of being) 5
forms (of being) 5
Dimension: 150 x 109 cm
forms (of being) 6
forms (of being) 6
Dimension: 150 x 82 cm
forms (of being) 7
forms (of being) 7
Dimension: 150 x 139 cm
Ursuppe (primordial soup)
Ursuppe (primordial soup)
Material: mixed media on wall
2016
Photo: CC
Ursuppe (primordial soup)
Ursuppe (primordial soup)
Material: mixed media on wall
2016
Photo: CC
Ursuppe (primordial soup)
Ursuppe (primordial soup)
Material: mixed media on wall
2016
Photo: CC
forms (of being) 8
forms (of being) 8
Dimension: 150 x 139 cm
Photo: CC
forms (of being) 9
forms (of being) 9
Dimension: 150 x 149 cm
Photo: CC